So I was on like this exercise kick for only about 3 weeks before I just got frustrated that I wasn't loosing any weight that I gave up. I know, it's pathetic and the exact opposite of what I should have done which would have been to work harder.
I can be totally honest with myself and say that I have been a lazy looser.
However, that is going to change! The problem that I have is sticking to exercise. I'll go on this huge workout bend and eat really healthy but after not seeing a single lb. drop I get so bummed out. Am I the only one?!
I think I need to start this slow and steady. I lost weight when I went off to college and the best I ever felt was at a 130. I was in no way a twig, but I was so fit, I exercised every day, and I just looked so good! However, I did not do it by healthy means so after about a year or so the lbs. started to creep back on.
I think my problem is I'm used to loosing weight from not eating, or throwing up, and taking diet pills. I just can't bring myself to do that anymore because I have a family now and I wouldn't want my daughter doing those things when she is older. I know that's a good thing though! I was starting to have some health issues because of them. But I've never lost weight the normal persons way, I have always incorporated one of those destructive habits which was why I was able to get into shape somewhat fast.
Today I took the plunge and stepped on the scale. After crying for about 10 minutes I picked myself back up and did something about it. I went on a 20 minute jog. I know that is probably nothing for some people, but for me it was a killer (and it was only 1.2 miles). I've never been very good at running but at least I had an 8 minute mile, this was just sad! However, I am proud of myself for doing it even though I felt like a fat looser.
I'm going to start jogging every morning for 20 minutes and start going to the gym again on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. I think I burnt myself out last time. I'm also going to use Fit Day again. I used this when I first lost weight in college and I loved tracking my calories.
I'm not going to lie though, sometimes I wish I could just loose weight like I did before but I know that it's a problem for me and if I do it just once I go to an extreme with it that just isn't healthy.
Wish me luck...again!