The house is clean, Brynlee is sleeping....so this is how I spend my time

I should probably be working on pictures, but they aren't due until Saturday...so I'd rather procrastinate ;)

As soon as we found out we were having a boy I new what colors I wanted in his nursery.  Navy, gray, and orange.  I saw this amazing room on Pinterest (of course) and couldn't get it out of my mind.

While I'm not completely sold on the bedding, it will most likely have to do and it's the one that I have liked the best and is the most affordable.  Thankfully we are actually using Brynlee's crib, dresser, rocker, and changing table, so the only big things we need buy are another dresser for Brynlee and her toddler bed.

I started getting Brynlees nursery ready as soon as we found out we were having a girl.  This time though we have to wait until May to actually buy anything and set it up.  I'm going to be selling about half of my studio off and putting the other half into storage.  Then Brynlee moves into the bigger room (where my studio is now) and baby Boston will sleep in our room for at least a few months but we'll have his nursery all set up in what is now Brynlee's room.

So for now I will just keep dreaming up different layouts for Boston's and Brynlee's new rooms.  Granted I can usually find cheaper versions (on etsy, TJMaxx, hobbylobby, ross, etc) or make things myself that are just as cute, but this gives me an idea of what I'm looking to design.

Navy, Coral, and Gold Toddler Room/ Nursery by brittanystanly featuring rod pocket curtains

Tiffany Blue, Gold, and Blush Pink Girls Room by brittanystanly featuring silk accent pillows

Boston's Nursery by brittanystanly

Happenings

It's been pretty low key around here.  Our big news is that we found out that we are having a BOY! I still can't really believe it.  I thought it was a boy, but when the ultrasound technician said 100% boy I was a little shocked.  I don't really know anything about boys haha We are so excited for this new adventure with becoming a family of 4.  We are pretty set on his name, Boston John Stanly but who knows if we'll change our minds right at the end of the pregnancy like with did with Brynlee (who was originally going to be named Sadie).  

I absolutely stink at taking pictures of Brynlee during the day.  Our apartment has horrible lighting (with the exception of our little nook in the kitchen).  I want to get an external flash, but thats kind of on the last of the things we need before baby comes.  I am going to make a better effort though to get some pictures of Brynlee other than on my phone.  

We have also been redecorating.  I have been wanting to do this for over a year (since we moved here), but there was always something more important to put money into.  I honestly haven't bought anything for our home until recently, so we really needed an update badly.  I am just working on our living room and its basically done.  We are just waiting for the sofa that we bought a couple of weeks ago to get here.  We have never had new furniture ever.  We have always bought ours second hand and it was really starting to look funky ;) It was a splurge for us, but the furniture store was having a 60% off liquidation sale so we didn't want to pass it up.  In the living room are color scheme is gray, light blue, white, and accents of yellow.  I absolutely love it right now.  It's calming and bright and just makes me happy to be in.  Once it's all finished I'll put up some pictures.  Gosh I can't wait till we have a home of our own and we can paint these walls!  Thankfully we have a nice two tone paint in our apartment and not stark white wals, but I would like a light neutral soft gray one day.  

Since Ben gave me basically complete free range on the living room, with the exception of the sofa.  He likes leather furniture while I prefer fabric (not microfiber though).  The living room does have some feminine touches. I have to admit it haha but I love it and it looks really nice and coordinated!  Any body else ever have designer disagreements with your spouse?  Ben loves darker richer colors and I'm moving more into neutrals with pops of color.  So we are basically opposite right now.  I caved and gave Ben free range of what color scheme to do our bedroom.  Granted the only thing we are actually going to be getting our some frames, curtains, and a new bedspread.  Let's cross our fingers that it isn't brown haha  

So other than just trying to get ready for baby, and waiting till my sessions our over in the next few months to get started on his room we are just playing around.  I want to do his nursery in Navy, light gray, and accents of burnt orange.  I've been searching high and low for bedding and I'm really coming up short.  There are way more options of girls!  If I new how to sew I would probably just make the crib sheets and skirt myself and just buy a bumper.  Bens only request was that we get a couple of small planes to hang in the corner of his room.  

This pregnancy has definitely been rough on my body and my mind.  It was never this physically difficult with Brynlee so deep down inside I have this worry that something just isn't right. And I'm scared to think that I have another 20 weeks of this pain.

As I write this its almost 12 am in the morning and I've just woke up in horrible pain. I dislocated my ribs once again while i was sleeping, this is now the third time. If you've never dislocated them you may think I'm a big baby, but if you have then you understand the pain I am in. I wake up feeling like somebody is crushing my spin, it feels like there is 100 lbs crushing me making it difficult to breath, I'm so dizzy because of it and I can't even take a deep breath. Sometimes the pain hurts so bad that i throw up. Not just a little either, I'm talking projectile vomiting everything I had for dinner. It reminds me.exactly when I started labor with Brynlee, I woke up said I didn't feel.good and then made a mad dash to the bathroom. My throwing up kick started my contractions. So every time I throw up like.that I am so scared that I'm going to go into labor too early. I can't sleep when this happens and I'm one of those people that need sleep. This pain doesnt stop either, And there is nothing to relieve the pain until i get adjusted the next day.

I'm so tired. I never sleep well and I'm just exhausted and short tempered.  I have no support around here except Ben, who works 9 hours a day. I am on egg shells all day about when the pain is going to start. I am going to start going to the chiropractor at least every other week to get adjusted but the dislocating will not stop for the rest of the pregnancy. To be totally blunt and honest I'm so scared of the next 4 months and how it's only going to get worse as time progresses, this makes it really hard to enjoy the process of the wonderful miracle and gift of life that I am blessed enough to participate in.

I feel so bad for complaining about my pain when others struggle to get pregnant and to keep those pregnancies viable. We have experienced some of those same struggles ourselves and i can recall my feelings. At the same time though I wish I could talk about it with someone who understands what it's like to have chronic pain.  It's affecting my attitude and my Outlook right now and not in a positive way. Ben ran out to get me a heating pad and I'll be getting a blessing from him when he gets home.

Right now I just needed to write down what I'm feeling to get it out of my system. I need to remind myself that this will pass and in just a matter of months I will have a sweet little baby in my arms as a reward. Heavenly Father doesn't give us what we can't handle, so I am strong enough to get through this and there is a purpose for this pain.